I’ve changed some since before all this--
before sense gave way to the global scare
of something in the air...
Before our smiles were veiled
and strangers snarled if we exhaled
within two outstretched arms.....
before our eyes could cast aspersions
from behind the magic masks
as if peeking through drawn curtains
at shadows in the yard.
And now that it has passed
(or in this pause between two storms),
I’ve learned to value strangers on the street
and treasure recollections of those I meet
in the same place where they were before.
It started weeks ago, when my wife and I,
in hopes of seeing something just the same,
ventured to a diner where we sometimes went
and though it had a different name,
we went again.
(It had never gone to pitching tents outdoors.
Instead, it closed for a year or more
before the new owner mustered up the nerve
to open for business again.)
Across the room was a waitress
who through the years
had topped my coffee off in passing.
I did not know her name nor she ours
but we were "regulars" enough to catch her eye,
and her distant glance and smile seemed to say,
"You're back. I remember you. So glad to see
you're still in the cast of this play we’re in again."
We later spoke, of course,
but the gist of what we said was that.
Such glances seem to happen everywhere I go.
I'll see someone I don't really know
and smile at them as if I do,
and they do the same to me on cue.
A mother and child out for a walk...
The man at the hardware store...
The cashier at the grocer, smiling behind glass
like a teller at the bank.
Strange that simply seeing faces makes me smile--
unexpectedly--because they are not loved ones
or friends from long ago.
They are the “extras” in the movie of my life
as I am an extra in theirs.
(No matter who we are, at some stage, in some setting,
in someone else's script...
we're all of us merely extras--bit parts... passers by
without whose presence the story is not real.)
Till now, we extras went unnoticed and uncredited,
but now, after all this, unwittingly and unrehearsed
we're in supporting roles with perfect strangers.
The throw-away lines and greetings
once lost in the ambient noise
now somehow suddenly matter…
the words matter… the people matter…
the going on matters…
as our unmasked faces show again
a glimpse of whose image they bear.
So here’s to the vaguely familiar faces
we see again each day.
Here's to the extras and nameless pedestrians
simply going on their way
as the last scene slowly widens
and the streets and buildings blur
to the long and gradual bend
of the horizon
that slowly fades... just before
The End.
It has now been 18 months since our state first closed its schools. Most everyone I know admits to going through phases during the pandemic that began to spread around the world in 2019. The first phase was disbelief: "How could this be?" Even as we watch with pity as Italy sang through the night, it didn't seem like it would happen here in the U.S. But it did.
The second phase was survival mode and we all walked a tight rope between faith and fear, characterized by extreme caution on a dystopian movie set of empty streets and shuttered storefronts. For months, we worked from home and rarely went outside as delivered groceries sat for 24 hours on our porches. Then, as if handling nitroglycerine, our gloved hands sanitized the paper bags and individual containers (Paper bags, we were told, were safer than plastic.)
The third stage was confusion. We had been told that common masks were ineffective and not needed. Then they were mandated indoors and out. By the seventh month, some schools were determined to open (as we did), while many states began a long year of "distance learning" for millions of students. Unemployment soared. A sense of isolation and lost hope began affecting people's mental health, and the suicide rate began to escalate even as the number of actual deaths from the virus began to decline. Businesses remained closed, many went under and never reopened. Some restaurants began serving limited menus in make-shift clear tents or shanties.
In many major Democratically-controlled cities, massive protests and riots were allowed to go on virtually unimpeded by law enforcement (officers of which were, in fact, the subject of the protests). Historic statues and monuments were torn down and defaced. The nation was torn along political lines, and the fact that so called "red states" were handling the pandemic quite differently than "blue states." This political divide led to distrust as the pandemic was used as the reason to allow untested "mail-in" voting for the 2020 presidential election. The aftermath of that controversial process continues to play out in America to this day. And in places like Australia, even more dystopian Marxism has taken control.
By June, 2021, 14 months after the closures, and several months after the non-FDA-approved vaccines were made available to all who chose to get it, most of America was reopen again. By this time, there was a deep sense of doubt in anything that the "experts" had to say about our health status. By then the source of the virus (Wuhan, China) was no longer in doubt even by those who had denied the most obvious facts for more than a year. The only thing that unified "both sides" seemed to be that masks were no longer needed (and once again proclaimed ineffective in blocking the virus).
Seeing a masked face has now become the exception rather than the rule. One can go days without seeing a mask. Faces and smiles are all around. It is wonderful, and it was when this window of "normalcy" first opened that we ate at a Grand Haven diner (formerly called "Delite"). It had been completely renovated into a 1950's motif. It was attractive but entirely different with many new young staff and though it was late June in a tourist town, there were many empty tables. It was then we saw the one person we recognized from the years before. Those thoughts prompted these lines.
I'm a big fan of old movies, and I like the ones that end without answering all of the questions, but the director's choice to end the story with a wider and wider shot until the viewer is seeing a more omniscient perspective reminds us that all is in God's hands... from beginning to end.
Note: Just one of the studies done on how masks make communication difficult.